Philip had in fact spent a great deal of his own time producing this particular singer, and even appeared in the video for the single shot in Holywood castle in Bray ,Co.Wicklow, all of which he told me he did free gratis and for nothing. Philip, who had been generous with his time help and advice for so many others, including myself, felt particularly wounded and hurt by this deeply personal attack. He said to me "Did you ever get to the point in your life where you just don't want to get up in the morning. I've got about two hundred people to support and they're all pissed off with me because I want to change things and live my own life. No matter how hard I try, there's always someone on my back and now even when I try to help people, they throw it back at me and make me sound like a fucking prick. I really have nothing left to give. I need to get away from all this".

Maybe in about twenty years time I'll feel like telling people the rest of that conversation. It would hurt too many people who are still around if I told it now and besides it was of a deeply personal nature. It was by far the most revealing conversation that I had ever had with Philip or anyone else for that matter, and to be honest I found it quite shocking and upsetting. I thought perhaps that he was suffering the after effects of alcohol or drugs or both but he assured me that this wasn't the case. He was totally lucid but in the most extreme psychological pain. He couldn't talk to anybody about it because there was no-one that he could trust and besides he had too much pride to let anyone know how he really felt inside. He was after all Philo. The Rocker. The Hard Man.